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I wanted a long time for this article. 12 months 😊

This year 2023 started very badly. After 6 February, when I lost my past, I decided not to think too much. If I think about day, I can’t live…

As always, I dreamt new dreams, because the world keeps on turning.

I have a notebook where I have been writing my dreams, prayers, wishes, good and bad days for years. I also write in that notebook the places I want to visit. I dreamt of going to Austria, Salzburg, Vienna. And I went. I walked alone with glass and white wine in my hand in Mirabell Palace and the streets of Salzburg. I went to Vienna by train and travelled all over the city for days. I had dinner with myself, I ordered dessert for myself.  And I wrote. I was grateful for this day and dreamed of the next day.


I’ve worked too hard. Too hard.

After returning to Turkey, this time I went to Birmingham for business reasons. For the first time in my life, I drove in the right seat. 😊 

When I returned to Turkey again, I received the best news of my life from my director. I was promoted. 

I continued to work. I had beautiful crossroads. I started a new journey with beautiful memories and experiences.

I am happy.


I had a gift for myself this year. I wanted to see Italy. 

I gave that gift to myself. I visited 2 countries and 13 cities for 8 days. I didn’t think about anything, I just travelled and saw. 

I ate the most delicious pizza in Toscana, I drank the most delicious wine in Florence. I tasted the best tiramisu in Siena and the best strawberry pie in Nemi. I sipped my coffee with liqueur in Como. I threw money into the Fountain of Love. 😊 ..prayed in the Vatican. I climbed the lion statue in Milan and danced. 😊

For the last 1 year, I used to write in my notebook that I wanted to go to Toscana. 

I used to dream of that place. I used to dream of walking there, running, breathing in peace… 

When I was in Toscana, I took a slice of pizza and ran to a place where I could see the nature. 

I sat down and took a deep breath. I had my notebook with me. 

I wrote the date and I said: “I’m here”.

Yes, I’m still alone. I’m a strong woman alone.

I am happy.

The world is spinning. It’s going round and round.

What I wonder that how this world keeps spinning around?

 

Handegül




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